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i) Eternal happiness for Cindy Baby ii) Stop hurting the person I love iii) Learn to forgive Affiliates
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Wednesday, January 18, 2012
6:26 PM
With all the macedoine feelings lately . All the confusion and frustration happening with you and me , I'm sorry . I didn't mean to hurt you and I will NEVER try to hurt you with any of my words . I just hope you can forgive me for what I've said . There's so much words I would like to say or suggest but I'd rather not and I knew it would only cause trouble . Even if I don't say it out , I'm guessing you won't be happy either telling me that I'm feeling threaten . I never think or intend for us to go separate ways . All I want to do when we feel frustrated or upset is to cheer you up again and clear your mind then I will clear mine . No matter how frustrated or upset I would be , I will think of you as my top priority and cheer you up first . When you're calm and having normal feelings again , I will feel relieved and start to relax . Everytime I try to cheer you up things just get worse and no improvement at all , I think the whole talking thing only works for me and I'll always try to reason with people . I don't want to say anything that will manipulate your thinking that from me loving you to me having problems when I'm with you . It's totally not like that and wish you understand . I do agree that I don't know how you feel but I sure do how disappointed felt like , no matter what either I'm sad or your sad , I will always sturdy to try not to affect you or hurt you with any of my words especially when I'm upset . Although I'm having messed up thinking . When I'm upset you always try to cheer me up and I appreciate that , I know if I continue to stay in that depressed state won't help you or me . If I continue eventually it will affect you indirectly and you will start having various kind of thinking that your not suitable for me or your not a good girlfriend . You are a good girlfriend . If your not suitable for me we won't last this long . If your not a good girlfriend you won't try to cheer me up and will just ignore how I feel . No matter what I say towards you , I only hope for mutual feelings because you are the person that I don't want to lose or get hurt from me or anyone else .Thursday, October 20, 2011
5:39 PM
My heart is heavy and almost going to break . You told me to stay strong so I did but I don't know how long I can stay like this. :(Wednesday, August 24, 2011
10:18 PM
So stressed out . So many things happening around me . Exam coming , don't know why my baby de mood just changed out of a sudden . Keep getting request from mom this and that . Sian , wish I can talk with you . Sunday, August 7, 2011
10:57 AM
Lately I've made my baby upset :( . I feel so selfish cannot give her anything and make her feel happy . I want to buy a bracelet for my baby as anniversary gift/birthday gift but I don't know how to give her personally . The only way is to pass to my cousin they all pass to her ;x . I feel so jealous they can give my baby personally while I cannot . But as long as baby is happy , it's ok . Nowadays want to buy so many games and play but I try to control when there even have a promotion xD , feel so guilty already spent so much money . I'm sorry baby , I love you . I know I can express my love in a lot of ways for you but I'm dumb and don't know how . I only know how to do it in real life when I'm with you , planned so much what to do when we're together :) .Tuesday, June 14, 2011
1:06 AM
Am I important to people ... I always feel like I'm better off dead . Being nice , being underatanding is all just a bad thing to do . I always wanted to die because I feel alone . No body appreciating me . My existance here is useless . Today , i bought my lunch for 8.80 and i gave the uncle 10 dollars . When the moment the guy gave me back the change I saw that there is extra 3 dollars . So I gave him back and when I tell my mom about what I did , I thought she might feel maybe happy about me maybe alittle? But .. No , she scolded me why I'm so stupid never jus take the money . I'm speechless :) . No matter what I do . I always fail , I already consider to suicide countless times . My life time wish , is just to see 'you' once before I die . But I guess I'm not lucky as others . So , I think I'm dying alone . Hope more and just got disappointed more . So why not just end the sorrow I'm experiencing now . Yes , I'm a coward trying to run from everything and I'm selfish never think of others . But you should know why I became so selfish . For what reason , for what purpose . I will never want to drag you into the problems I'm having . I don't feel like srudying anymore ... No one understands how much pain my parents are giving me . I will never be the perfect son they wsnted me to be . I believe I haven't even reach the 'good' standard in their eyes . Tears dropping , eyes burning , turning into blood red colour . But who cares about me . I've already decided . I've always got that strong urge but when I remember the one I love and must protect . I just feel like I can do it yet . But now I don't know why I feel like doing it again . Maybe it's the thing I've done to you , my attitude , and the selfish way I treated you . You deserve better , more than better . You should deaerve the best thing but I failed to give you and happiness . After all these years . I never had the most wonderful memory . But at least I have you in my memory . Maybe I got too greedy . Looking at your pic made me smile but I wanted more . Now , my heart its like just had a sudden impact , just like dipping my heart in a lava pool . It burns . But not a single tear came up . Opening my eyes wide after crying . Looking at the ceiling as if everything will be better ... I wanted to apologize but I'm afraid it will only make things worse . I wanted to comfort you but I know every word I say is like more spikes going to stab your heart . I think I will just remain quiet , I dont want you to cry anymore . Perhaps , it's time for me to go to stop everyone's suffering that I did to them .Thursday, June 9, 2011
12:53 AM
Baby I'm worried about you . I'm sorry if I hurt you . I don't know what happened , I just feel that your not comfortable with something just went offline so fast . Maybe your really tired , I wanted to believe that but my mind kept on telling me your not ok . I really hope your ok baby . I love you , every tear I shed now is worth it if your gonna be okay tomoorow . Good night ... baby cindy .Thursday, May 26, 2011
6:21 PM
I'm sorry baby . All I can say is sorry . I could not do anything else for you . Sigh , when your behaving like this . Really want to cry , maybe I could feel the pain your suffering from what I've done to you . Sorry |